To My Future Husband..

Piliippians 4:6 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situations, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God."

I have never realy been boy crazy. But these days I (and God) have taken that to another level.
You see.. what I'm about to say might sound silly or made up.. But I truly feel like God has my "soulmate" here for me in Nashville. And I have felt this way for a while. I am not restricting God to this feeling but I feel a new peace that comes with the word "dating".

I am by no means ready to get married. Not even ready to date. (might sound pathetic to some considering the fact that I will be 18 in a month.) But being the best girlfriend/fiance/wife possible is what I'm going for. There's no telling how many Princes I could scare off if I tried to date them now. I am simply not the mature, Godly woman that I want my "soulmate" to look for.

I want to be the girl that guys know they can't have.

I want them to see qualities in me that they aspire to have in a wife. They have to be ready to pursue me in a way that would make my father proud and most importantly, I want it to be clear that I am off limits until then. I am not giong to bend my standards for someone who is willing to let me bend my stardards for them.

I have been praying for my future husband since I was a girl.

Why would I be preparing myself for a guy who is not prepared for me?
The guy God has picked out, ultimately will be perfect for me. He won't care that I am clumsy, forgetful, indecisive, COMPLETELY un-athletic and uncoordinated. Maybe he'll even like that about me? The only way this guy will be ready to handle me is if he is completely willing to let God change him.

Homegirls, don't let a guy change you, let GOD. I am confident God won't let me down. So whether or not I look back and say "When we met in Nashville.." or "When we were 18.." I want to be looking back at this blog in 20 years thinking "Wow, so glad I waited for the guy God had for me!" 
Psalm 25:21 "Let integrity and uprightness preserve me, For I wait for You."

Where I Am Now

Everyday I wake up I think, "Wow, I really did it." I am officially a Tennesseeian. I love it even more than I thought I would! I love the big town, the opportunity, being with family, the fall we're about to experience. It is just a fun place to live. I have been busy working but other than that I just spend a lot of time with my sisters and family.


In March I decided I wasn't going to culinary school and I had no idea what I wanted to do for about.. a week. But I'll never forget the moment Nashville was put on my mind. I was with my parents riding home from something one night and I'm sure I was freaking out wondering what I was going to do with my life. Then it just hit me. I wanted to move to Nashville. Ever since that night, I never changed my mind. I knew it was what God wanted me to do. I wasn't always excited about it. But I knew after summer, I would move to Nashville. Now I wasn't sure I wasn't going to change my mind, so I didn't tell a lot of people til later. But plans started forming and I felt sure it was what I was going to do so I made it official. And here I am, sitting in Tennessee, with a scratchy throat, drinking coffee, wearing a snuggie and extremely happy.
I know this is exactly where I am supposed to be and I have never been more peaceful in my whole life.

I haven't had a melt down yet, but I have only been here 13 days.
I already feel like this is home.
I don't feel like I have unfinished business in Moultrie.
I stay excited for the possibilities of the present.
I am discovering a new me that I never knew.
I rely on God and I feel like I finally get a chance to fully trust Him. He is faithful.

But there are moments when things don't look as peachy.
Like when everyone goes home for labor day and you're 8 hours from home.
When people freak me out and ask "What's next?"
Or when mom texts me sweet things and reminds me of how much I miss her (stop doing that)

I miss my parents. I know they are both hanging at the river this weekend wishing they had us there, trying to adjust to not having any kids around. And I know they will read this immediately and Dad will start crying just like I am now. And they'll talk about how proud of their children they are. I know for a fact I can call anytime I want and they'll do whatever it takes to be able to talk. But mom and dad, my biggest fans, don't worry, I'm doing fine!

I miss and love everyone at home. Pray for me if you remember, pray for wisdom and guidance as I trust God to use me in this new and exciting season!