This summer I realized how much I fear unhappiness. Which I think we all do, but I felt so hopeless thinking "I can trust God to protect me and provide but does God care if I am happy? " and honestly that I fear more than if He will provide or protect. I don't really care if I am living on the streets as long as I'm happy.
I may not be the most sensitive or emotional person but I am a girl and definitely have plenty of emotions. I get so frustrated with the mood swings I sometimes have and I wouldn't even consider myself that moody. So I can't imagine how moody people handle their emotions. I can hardly handle mine.
The truth is that God is the God of joy. And joy is what he brings. My joy is found in the Lord. My happiness is based off circumstances. The way I feel should not controll my peace and joy. Happiness is a feeling. It's a great feeling. But what I want is uncontrollable joy that can't be explained or diminished. It is His Joy that remains in us that makes our joy full.
So I have been seriously trying to no longer let my emotions controll my attitude. And not only my attitude but my future. I don't want to make decisions based off of emotions and I certainly don't want to let them rob me of the joy the Lord has to offer. So though sometimes I may not feel happy, I choose not to let the feeling controll me.
I hope this makes sense to you and that it gives you hope for the times of struggle when you are not happy. God is joy!
I hope this makes sense to you and that it gives you hope for the times of struggle when you are not happy. God is joy!
